''I Feel Guilty.''

I do come across people who suffers from Chronicle illnesses that suffers from 'the guilt'. Having a chronicle illness such as CF, means that you need to accept the fact that you will be needing other peoples help in things which a normal person will do without any assistance.

Suffering from the guilt of not being fully independent is a very terrible feeling, especially when you try to sort out a new life for yourself. Growing up as a CF my parents knew all the things I need help with and what I can or cannot do on my own, and that was totally fine. But when I was in secondary school I started to compare myself with my classmates and there is where I realised that my norm was just the abnormal for the rest, and that meant - I am different.

I do feel guilty that I have to ask for assistance when I go grocery shopping so to avoid touching the products, shelves and trolley. Having to ask someone to drive me somewhere if where I need to be don't have a close parking or blue badges available. And home chores are another story !! They are tiring and exhausting for someone with CF. Comments like: ''you are being lazy'', ''you should try and live my lifestyle.'' and a common one in Maltese : ''murr gibek taghmel li naghmel jien f'gurnata'' ...are to be avoided cause as I always say, you'll never know what people are dealing with. If someone with a chronic illness ask for something that may come across as us being lazy, it's because we really, REALLY can't.

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